This post is purely personal and pretty deep.
2016 didn’t start off very well in the Woodruff household. We returned from Christmas holidays on a high. Seeing our friends and family and enjoying being back in Sweet Home Alabama was so wonderful. The whole trip made us extremely homesick and dreaming of the day when we can move back. There are things we like about living in California, don’t get me wrong, but having a child has completely changed everything. When we decided to make the move we weren’t pregnant and we thought moving out here would be this great adventure. Then we found out we were having a baby (and I wouldn’t change that for the world, I LOVE our little Lincoln and he is meant to be here) but it threw a bit of a wrench in our plans. We haven’t been able to enjoy California the way we thought and caring for a little one with no help from family has been very trying at times.
So here we are, back from the holidays and the whole month of January it seemed we were sick. Lincoln brought home some germies from the church nursery and made everyone sick. My poor hubby got the worst of it. Then I start to think about the year ahead of me in my business. One wedding was all I had marked on my calendar for photography work. Then the thoughts from the enemy started creeping in…”you’re a failure”, “you’re going to go out of business”, “you should hang it up”… After almost 7 years of photographing weddings, I couldn’t imagine myself doing anything else. It’s hard not to look at social media and what many of my friends or others in the industry are doing and not be jealous. Why can’t I be busy like they are? Why am I not getting work? Have I lost my magic as a photographer?
God knows what’s best for us. He has gone before us and paved our way. He knew that I would have this lull in my business, He planned it. He ordered it. He has blessed me with it. Time to focus on my family, especially this adorable little guy that takes up most of my time anyway. Time for myself. Time to take a step back and educate and invest in myself so I can grow as a photographer and a business owner.
Mostly, God is trying to show me that I have to rely on Him…for everything. I can’t handle things on my own. Having a child has shown me that if nothing else. I need His divine help. Rest is good in every form. Don’t misunderstand me, I don’t mean rest by simply being lazy. But rest from things that stress or busy up our lives and detract from the things that truly matter is good.
“ALL THINGS HAVE BEEN HANDED OVER TO ME by My Father; and no one knows the Son except the Father; nor does anyone know the Father except the Son, and anyone to whom the Son wills to reveal Him. “COME TO ME, ALL WHO ARE WEARY and heavy-laden, and I WILL GIVE YOU REST. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS.” ~Matthew 11:27-29
This year will be a year of rest, renewal and renovation for me. This year will be about finding peace and letting God show me what He wants for me.
The image above is of my wedding rings. I was inspired to get out the ole camera this morning and shoot. I am sad to say I don’t use my camera everyday like I should, but I’m going to work on that